Callsign: Barfly (seraphicideals) wrote,
Callsign: Barfly

Within a month of Trump's election I was made homeless ...

That is a fact. More on that later.

I'm writing this on my phone. I haven't used the mobile app before, but I need to keep this in my life.

Living out here (now that I am neither homeless nor in danger) is doing good things for me. I am doing good work for others, and I believe in it.

The thing I really wanted to record was the realization that lesbianism has always defined definition. I met a he/his afab, only 21 years old, who identifies as "gay" and wants "vagina" by which he means he wants cis women. I was hanging out with another woman only slightly older than me, but old enough to have been a Lexington regular-- she said, "he'd love it there." At the Lexington. The last lesbian bar. He!

(Clearly, a mixed up kid with some exploration left to do, but somehow not a dealbreaker?)

Pretty much only the shitty dykes are gatekeepers. I was afraid of my own identity because of them. I forced myself to endure rejection and posturing for so long, because I didn't feel "pure" enough. If I had found a way to avoid meeting the gatekeepers first, maybe I would have gotten a feeling of belonging and reconciliation sooner.

Unsurprisingly, i guess a lot of Phoenix lesbians were socially conservative.

I've been reading lesbian books. History isn't so "pure" either. It is a relief.

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.